when my alarm for my medicine went off this morning, I was so warm and comfortable, snuggled next ti you. Then I turned the alarm off, and turned back over, to a cold and empty bed.
I wondered where you had gone.
Then I remembered that you have been gone for a very long time.
And an even longer time since we could snuggle in the bed, since you couldn't breathe lying down.
So why would I think that?
Was it a dream?
A dream remnant?
Was it just warmth and comfort?
If so, did I conjured it up for myself, or was the loving warmth coming from you?
I don't know.
I'll never know.
What I do know is that in that moment between sleeping and waking, the bed got colder and bigger and emptier.
I miss you.
I wondered where you had gone.
Then I remembered that you have been gone for a very long time.
And an even longer time since we could snuggle in the bed, since you couldn't breathe lying down.
So why would I think that?
Was it a dream?
A dream remnant?
Was it just warmth and comfort?
If so, did I conjured it up for myself, or was the loving warmth coming from you?
I don't know.
I'll never know.
What I do know is that in that moment between sleeping and waking, the bed got colder and bigger and emptier.
I miss you.
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