Turned the calendar page yesterday. One whole page of the calendar that you weren't here in your room, in your chair, living your life.
That's over and done with, and now there's that page gone and we're on to the next.
I had both the babies this weekend. First time I've had them both since you left us. The only reason I tried was because Tracy had said that was what she wanted for her birthday, but once they were here she said she wanted them for me because they make me smile. Good to be thought of, but have a hard time with Tracy wanting something for someone else for HER special day doesn't ring true.
However, they were both here and it was not bad at all. Your little buddy boy had a cold -- Tam says it's not the same one, but that Hailey brings new ones home from school -- and he's having the ear-jaw-tooth pain that has plagued him for a while. (At least, that is what it appears to be. No one really knows but him, and he can't tell us yet.)
But, after a day, he chirked up and cheered up and the boy is happy now after getting home to "momomomomom." He'll be walking before speaking, and he'll be in school before he has teeth at this rate. Poor lil guy.
Hailey and I made a house from the kit I got. She had a blast, and was happy. Not sure if it was because we worked together (she said "Santa Claus will be so proud of us") or putting bananas on the roof. After it got all dry, she decided to put it in the living room, but brought it through to the front room. It is now framed in the window as Mammaw's decoration.
She decorated the tree, too. We have been waiting five years for that day, and you weren't here to enjoy it with me. Made me sad. But it was a delight to watch her so seriously consider and place and re-place the ornaments. You know how involved she gets with her projects!
Tracy is going to college. She thinks I should be all celebratory and throw a party or something, and all I can think of is how many times you tried to get her to do this exact thing and she had no time for it while you were here. I suppose it's a reasonable alternative to getting a job, especially as she is still reasonably young. I don't know.
I had kind of played with the idea of going back to school, one of the tech schools, maybe. But someone has to make a living and winter is hard enough with income. We can't neither one of us live off you in exchange for taking care of you now, can we?
I sure would like to have those days back.
I sure would like to have you back.
That would be more.
Although we are getting a bit old for "we have each other; who needs money?"
Ahh, but I remember those days. We had 'em.
Anyway, we passed a milestone with the turning of the Rexless calendar page.
And the new page has started with babies and a birthday and a new venture for both of us here. (I have a job interview I'm optimistic about, as well as filling out applications still)
So, my dear, we go on.
It's not like we have any choice,
That's over and done with, and now there's that page gone and we're on to the next.
I had both the babies this weekend. First time I've had them both since you left us. The only reason I tried was because Tracy had said that was what she wanted for her birthday, but once they were here she said she wanted them for me because they make me smile. Good to be thought of, but have a hard time with Tracy wanting something for someone else for HER special day doesn't ring true.
However, they were both here and it was not bad at all. Your little buddy boy had a cold -- Tam says it's not the same one, but that Hailey brings new ones home from school -- and he's having the ear-jaw-tooth pain that has plagued him for a while. (At least, that is what it appears to be. No one really knows but him, and he can't tell us yet.)
But, after a day, he chirked up and cheered up and the boy is happy now after getting home to "momomomomom." He'll be walking before speaking, and he'll be in school before he has teeth at this rate. Poor lil guy.
Hailey and I made a house from the kit I got. She had a blast, and was happy. Not sure if it was because we worked together (she said "Santa Claus will be so proud of us") or putting bananas on the roof. After it got all dry, she decided to put it in the living room, but brought it through to the front room. It is now framed in the window as Mammaw's decoration.She decorated the tree, too. We have been waiting five years for that day, and you weren't here to enjoy it with me. Made me sad. But it was a delight to watch her so seriously consider and place and re-place the ornaments. You know how involved she gets with her projects!
Tracy is going to college. She thinks I should be all celebratory and throw a party or something, and all I can think of is how many times you tried to get her to do this exact thing and she had no time for it while you were here. I suppose it's a reasonable alternative to getting a job, especially as she is still reasonably young. I don't know.
I had kind of played with the idea of going back to school, one of the tech schools, maybe. But someone has to make a living and winter is hard enough with income. We can't neither one of us live off you in exchange for taking care of you now, can we?
I sure would like to have those days back.I sure would like to have you back.
That would be more.
Although we are getting a bit old for "we have each other; who needs money?"
Ahh, but I remember those days. We had 'em.
Anyway, we passed a milestone with the turning of the Rexless calendar page.
And the new page has started with babies and a birthday and a new venture for both of us here. (I have a job interview I'm optimistic about, as well as filling out applications still)
So, my dear, we go on.
It's not like we have any choice,
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